14.05.00 : home in motion

Sun. 14th May

sue's lovely message has prompted a response from another person feeling sad that she has not been able to contribute as much as she had hoped but for very different reasons
i have been commuting from london to nottingham for over a year and this appears to have weakened my immune system so that i am constantly getting ill
much of my written work celebrates women and movement - in particular i am interested in the figure of the angel - as one who moves between and challenges existing boundaries - while it is clear that there are very different kinds of movement from place to place - very different politics of travel - some kinds which can be celebrated - others which are disturbing since they are about having to leave rather than wanting to arrive.
since i was born i have always moved - at least every three years - around the glbde at first and then more recently around around uk
i need to move - my most comfortable relation to space is to be in motion - i feel happiest in a place when i know i am just about to leave - but commuting is different - especially when it demands a different identity at either end - commuting is a space between in many ways in that in-between-zone which should be about musing and free thought
what i have created is a series of notebooks - these are full - not of insightful day dreams - but scratched out and re-worked lists and more lists of things to be done at either end - and lists of things to be carried to and fro in bags - things that i have considered essential to define myself at either end - these things-carried have gradually who i am in some ways
rather than locate myself in a place i locate myself in a bag.
so my commute has made me somewhat critical of my earlier position - where i was fond of arguing that for me a sense of stability came from being in motion - now i am keener to consider what exactly is necessary to make home in motion - or rather that we still need to create a sense of stability when moving

in response to living in books i'm currently making a book or rather two books with an artist friend - we realised that although we all dip in and out of books and live in many books at the same time - this is always a reader's choice and not one that a writer has ever responded to - as far as i know - have any writers written books designed to be read along-side others?
a number of similar things happened to us while my friend was in africa and i in london - on the same days and in reponse to such things as gift giving.

we are making two books that are to be read at the same time - if that is possible...

jane